States of mind...Difficult Question.

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?

Maybe many people see me as a very serious person but I’m not. I enjoy a lot when I can laugh with people but I don’t like to laugh about people for example when someone falls, or if someone has mistakes in a public presentation. Those are not reasons for me to laugh of others. I think that laughing is one of the better ways to be in a relax state. I like jokes that friends can tell me because I suck at telling jokes and stuff like that. I also like stories (secuence of events) from other people that get complicated somehow (they become like a drama) and that they get solved in easy ways. I think laugh is one of the best medicines and it creates a sense of happiness. It’s very relaxing.

WHAT FRIGHTENS YOU?

I think that what frightens me the most is the sense of being lost in life. I feel this way when I see the goals or the paths I have chosen are not clear, or are disorganized. I also feel frightened when I’m lost in the literal sense. I mean, when I’m lost searching for a place or an address. These things frighten me because I feel insecure. Other things that frighten me are flying cockroaches, or walking alone late in the night. Also when someone surprises me when I’m alone, or focus in something… for example when I’m drinking a coffee, or reading in a cafeteria and someone yells “Helloooooo” in my ear. That doesn´t scare me but it creates a rise in my heart-beating and a very strong headache.

WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL DEPRESSED?

These are very difficult questions for me because sometimes I think we just jump from one state to another. I get depressed when someone I knew had a tragic or non expected death and I start questioning myself about existential issues as life, death, if we really know or not know people, if we really have real and close friends etc. I also feel depressed when I feel I have a lot of work to do and no time to do it. This creates a sensation of chaos in my head.

WHAT HELPS YOU TO RELAX?

I don’t really want to be specific with this question but laughing is one of the ways to get relaxed. Also to share with someone you love: going to the movies, reading something together, eat together, cook and other things…. Oh, cooking is a great way to be relaxed and to learn new things to do in the kitchen.

WHAT DO YOU REALLY DETEST?

One of things that I really detest is liars. I think in moments when I find out that someone is lying everything or most part of the confidence goes down and I start asking myself in what point of the relationship something else changed. I think that to hate something is one of the worst feelings someone can have because it is connected with bounds you had with that person, deception, memories, good feelings…

WHAT MAKES YOU STRESSED?

I already mentioned one of the causes of my stress: a lot of work and no time to do it. And I would have to add the fact that for example in weekends I also have to share time with my family because I don’t see them so often during the week. So this is less time for my homeworks of the school and the university. Other thing that creates stress in me is the fact to think in how I will have to earn the money to survive in the future. I think the future is a difficult question in my life because I start thinking that my choices haven’t been correct.

WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL EMBARRASSED?

My low capacity to make presentations in public and my cero capacity to dance.

WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?

I don’t believe in complete or full states of mind or feelings. There are always mixture of things inside our heads and hearts that’s why this question is one of the most difficult ones. I feel I’m happy when I’m with someone I love: boyfriend, good friends or family. I love it when my cousin (4 years) is with me, with him I see the world in other colors and with other senses. It’s great.

I also love when I’m independent to be alone, to go to the cinema, to be in conferences I’m interested in no matter who is or is not there. In general situations I feel good when I have the sense that I’m learning something. I feel happy when I read and when I can find passion in my life.

As Sándor Márai says:

“¿Crees tu también que el sentido de la vida no es otro que la pasión,

Que un día colma nuestro corazón, nuestra alma y nuestro cuerpo,

Y que después arde para siempre, hasta la muerte, pase lo que pase?”